I’ve always been interested in the hidden reasons and motivations that drive people do the things that they do. In the same regard I’ve always found so fascinating the role that our childhood, the most vulnerable and the most impressionable part of our lives, plays in forming our world view as an adult.
But it was only after recently, and only after recollecting a hidden childhood memory of my own that I managed to develop a new and decent understanding of the role of our subconscious mind and started to pay more attention to it…
So now I want to further investigate the outside influences that shape our subconscious mind that eventually shapes our every decision that ultimately shapes the outcome of our lives... and I want to connect this question with, how do we form our new understanding of the world surviving through a trauma. I want to find out: Can it be fixed, can it be healed?
300 words:
A hidden childhood trauma is any experience that presents the child’s mind with a stimulus too powerful to be assimilated in a normal way hence resulting the subconscious mind taking over the system by blocking the memory from processing as normal.
But this protective action doesn’t come without its consequences. And this interference on the psyche of the child, by turning on the survival mode, creates a difficult threshold moving forward where the child has a hard time establishing a base of normality in his life therefore starts to gradually retreat from the real world.
Furthermore, this tendency of escaping the reality makes the child more likely to unconsciously buy-in and connect in a deeper level with the idealized fictional identities, goals and messaging that he has been constantly exposed through commercials, films and television.
And not so surprisingly most children with hidden childhood trauma, later in life, describe the period around their age of 20-30, as their darker moments in their lives; at which time they get out to the real world where for the first time and realize that the fantasy and the promise of a normal life that they were aspiring simply wasn't there like it was in the movies.
This is the journey of a hidden childhood trauma survivor, at this exact phase, starting life all over again trying to re-learn how to live as an adult.
This is the grounding efforts of a dreamer, connecting with its subconscious in order to find one’s true self and purpose in life while struggling to heal the pain of a trauma.
This is a revolt against an industry and an effort to create a road-map on how to reverse-engineer the obnoxious behavioral patterns that the commercial film industry carved into our minds for years.
keywords:
“childhood”, “memory”, “loss”, “childhood trauma”, “hidden trauma”, “story”, “narrative”, “storytelling”, “documentary”, “feature”, “subconscious”, “guardian angel”, “lucid dreaming”, “smells”, “choices”, “vulnerability”, “escape”, “reality”, “fiction”, “commercial”, “film”, “industry”, “starting over”, “revolt”, “pain”, “dreams”, “journey”, “adult”, “grounding”, “behavior”, “pattern”.
my inspiration:
For this project, I was inspired by a feature documentary called “Minding the Gap” where the filmmaker Bing Liu, is dealing with his own family trauma by exposing himself in front of the camera and connecting the story to his other passion skateboarding that made him survive his troubled childhood.
And I want to do the same, except, I want to go on a journey and make a film about my life long passion to make films that helped me survive my childhood and uncover the hidden motivations behind it.
Minding the Gap: bit.ly/2Nj6t9d
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