Abstract: (116 words)
In this paper I’m gonna talk about trauma, subconscious and repressed memories; and their connection to the commercial film industry. I will start by examining how these subjects are manifested in the history of cinema and documentaries throughout the century. Then I will connect this literature review to my present work- a feature documentary about an adult with a repressed childhood memory, trying to deal with his new life, after one day remembering the hidden trauma. I will further investigate how the subconscious mind deals with trauma as a child and as an adult; and I will use my own experiences, as well as neuroscience to expose how the film industry uses subconscious and turn in into a formula in order to sell more products.
Keywords:
“childhood trauma”, “repressed memory”, “subconscious”, “narrative”, “documentary” “film industry” “hollywood”
Background/Overview: (283 words)
I will start by creating a chain of filmmakers starting from 1929 who, for the first time, used trauma, repressed memories and subconscious as a subject-matter in their narrative. I will start with surrealism, and, Louis Bunuel and Salvador Dali’s works on dreams, than move on to Alfred Hitchcock and examine in details his impact on Hollywood and future filmmakers like de Palma, Spielberg, Fincher, and del Torro.
On the second route I will talk about the transformation of film narrative after World War 2; and the use of trauma and memories as a subject-matter in the world cinema. I will review the works of Renais, Varda, Tarkovski and Kurosawa and their contributions to the narrative on the subject.
On the third route I will investigate the history of documentaries starting from the Cinema Verité, part of the Nouvelle Vague movement in the ‘60s, that for the first time started to show regular people in everyday situations with authentic dialogue and naturalness of action.
Finally I will talk about two specific documentaries related to my work, as a showcase of how a documentary engages, in parallel to a fiction film. Elenor Coppola’s Hearts of Darkness: A Filmmaker’s Apocalypse (1993) and Werner Herzog’s Burden of Dreams (1982).
Both documentaries start with telling the simple ‘behind the scenes’ story of the fiction films— Francis Coppola’s Apocalypse Now! (1979) and Werner Herzog’s Fitzcarraldo (1982), but both of them along the way find themselves telling the story of their filmmakers, right in the middle of living the same controversies with the fictional story that they’re about to tell. One story in to realities, using two different mediums; mixing the fiction and documentary, mixing the conscious and subconscious.
Question?: Sigmund Freud and Carls Young, Neuroscience and Neurocinematics
The Work: (340 words)
Description:
A feature documentary about an adult filmmaker who starts life over again after recollecting a hidden childhood memory of his own; trying to learn how to live, tracing how he got here in the first place…
One narrative simultaneously examining 3 perception of realities:
Inspirations:
Guillermo Del Torro’s Pan’s Labyrinth (2006), Ang Lee’s Life of Pi (2012), Morgan Spurlock’s The Greatest Movie Ever Sold (2011), Sandi Tan’s Shirkers (2018), BBC’s The Century of the Self (2002).
Content:
1) The journey (actual timeline of the documentary)
Narrating the story from the beginning, I wish to show how big of a silent issue ‘childhood traumas’ are in our daily conversation, how it affects the people who go through with it, and what is the role of our system in it.
This main part of the documentary is dark, calm and slow paced where the character begins a journey to find one’s true self and begins to heal the pain of the trauma.
2) The healing (the animation)
With the guidance of experts and neuroscientists, I wish to use Lucid Dreaming and re-enact my dreams to connect with my subconscious and visualize the trauma.
This will be a ‘Petit Prince’ like drawn ‘Don Chiote’ story of a child against an invisible monster who has been haunting him for his entire life. The illustrations of the dreams will be innocent, chivalrous and heroic.
3) The culprit (Hollywood)
On this part I wish to introduce a basic, formulated Hollywood movie about a college freshman who one day gets a surprise visit from his future self; to prevent him to go through the biggest trauma of his life that will change the entire outcome of his future forever.
The visuals of this ‘made up’ movie, as a contrast will be extremely commercial, and the snippets of the film that we’re going to see will aim to expose insider film industry tricks, subtle commercial messages and pre-designed triggering words that only aims to create an idealized unreachable idea of reality for its consumers.
Same 3 characters, in 3 different realities, in 3 different textures. One narrative.
10 Aralık 2019 Salı
26 Kasım 2019 Salı
CHAPTER 10 - Three Elements of Hitchcock
The drastic transformation in the cinema industry during the ’60s, in so many ways, had delayed Hitchcock's films’ true artfulness and elements of pure cinema to be fully appreciated by the viewers and critics.
So much so that one of his best works, Vertigo (1958) a story about a past trauma and psychosis, wasn't considered to be anything special until its re-release in 1983. Today it’s not only named Hitchcock's masterpiece by the cinematic community but also at the time claimed the throne of ”Greatest Films of All Time" from Orson Welles' Citizen Kane.
One of the aspects that made Hitchcock’s work so unique was the use the camera as an extension of himself. It fetishized, expressed and focused on its interests in the same way a human would, which wasn't common at the time.
“If you can think you can hide what your prurient or your noble interests are in your work as a film director, you’re nuts! And he was one of the first guys that just said: ‘I'm gonna go with it, I gotta be me.’” says David Fincher about Hitchcock’s work.
Second… He was a true master of self-promotion. Hitchcock is one of the earliest to instinctively understand the power of branding. He embraced television appearances, put himself in his own movie trailers, made cameos and posed with the stars during set breaks.
“He created a comedic persona and created a name recognized and marketable, therefore every generation will encounter Alfred Hitchcock” as Ingo Kammerer points out.
But the most fascinating part of Hitchcock’s work was the way he designs his narrative, and how the audience engages with it. A neuroscientist, Uri Hasson, who studies the brain activities of subjects while they’re watching Hitchcock films, puts this in a scientific way:
“Hitchcock style of cinema is an experiment on the audience. He leads you to one place, then surprises you and take a turn; then he builds you up again and let it go. He doesn’t leave any area of freedom to the audience. The brains of the audience are constantly stimulated. It’s like a machine that forces you from one state to the other and take control of your brain and align it with the movie in a very powerful and complicated way.”
So much so that one of his best works, Vertigo (1958) a story about a past trauma and psychosis, wasn't considered to be anything special until its re-release in 1983. Today it’s not only named Hitchcock's masterpiece by the cinematic community but also at the time claimed the throne of ”Greatest Films of All Time" from Orson Welles' Citizen Kane.
One of the aspects that made Hitchcock’s work so unique was the use the camera as an extension of himself. It fetishized, expressed and focused on its interests in the same way a human would, which wasn't common at the time.
“If you can think you can hide what your prurient or your noble interests are in your work as a film director, you’re nuts! And he was one of the first guys that just said: ‘I'm gonna go with it, I gotta be me.’” says David Fincher about Hitchcock’s work.
Second… He was a true master of self-promotion. Hitchcock is one of the earliest to instinctively understand the power of branding. He embraced television appearances, put himself in his own movie trailers, made cameos and posed with the stars during set breaks.
“He created a comedic persona and created a name recognized and marketable, therefore every generation will encounter Alfred Hitchcock” as Ingo Kammerer points out.
But the most fascinating part of Hitchcock’s work was the way he designs his narrative, and how the audience engages with it. A neuroscientist, Uri Hasson, who studies the brain activities of subjects while they’re watching Hitchcock films, puts this in a scientific way:
“Hitchcock style of cinema is an experiment on the audience. He leads you to one place, then surprises you and take a turn; then he builds you up again and let it go. He doesn’t leave any area of freedom to the audience. The brains of the audience are constantly stimulated. It’s like a machine that forces you from one state to the other and take control of your brain and align it with the movie in a very powerful and complicated way.”
19 Kasım 2019 Salı
CHAPTER 9 - The Historical Context
The importance of the French New Wave Cinema, and the works of directors like Alain Resnais and Agnès Varda helped to construct a different type of filmmaking that changed the film industry to this day…
Instead of relying on the assumption that successful pieces of work have to come from big budgeted studios, and from the re-enactment of the stories based off literary pieces, these new auteurs rebelliously proved that quality filmmaking could be done with their own visions and grounded stories that touch on important subject matters, like pains of the past (trauma), sexual experiences, time and repressed memories that were extremely taboo at the time to expose on the big screen.
According to one critic Roger Ebert: “With the unconventional use of editing, using hard jump cuts and disrupting the expected smoothness, Resnais aimed to break the dreamlike-movie-watching state of the audience; making them conscious of the fact that they are watching a movie about real life.”
One other rebellion against the film industry, and to everything that was taboo at the time, was the short “Un Chien d’Andolou” which would later become the manifestation of the surrealist movement in cinema.
It’s was a film born of the visualization of the literal dreams of Louis Bunuel and Salvador Dali which for the first time brought forward the dream logic, the subconscious and the hidden layers of life out in the open for everyone to face… And it was outrageous.
"For the first time in the history of the cinema, a director tries not to please but rather to alienate, offend nearly all potential spectators and wake them up. It’s disturbing, frustrating, maddening” wrote the critic Ado Kyrou.
Also a breakthrough in trauma documentaries “The Child of Rage”, the actual therapy footage of a 7-year-old Beth Thomas, a girl severely abused by her parents for years admitting her murderous thoughts against her little brother on camera; and “Century of the Self” a one of a kind documentary about the rise of psychoanalysis as a powerful means of persuasion for both governments and corporations using commercials and films.
Instead of relying on the assumption that successful pieces of work have to come from big budgeted studios, and from the re-enactment of the stories based off literary pieces, these new auteurs rebelliously proved that quality filmmaking could be done with their own visions and grounded stories that touch on important subject matters, like pains of the past (trauma), sexual experiences, time and repressed memories that were extremely taboo at the time to expose on the big screen.
According to one critic Roger Ebert: “With the unconventional use of editing, using hard jump cuts and disrupting the expected smoothness, Resnais aimed to break the dreamlike-movie-watching state of the audience; making them conscious of the fact that they are watching a movie about real life.”
One other rebellion against the film industry, and to everything that was taboo at the time, was the short “Un Chien d’Andolou” which would later become the manifestation of the surrealist movement in cinema.
It’s was a film born of the visualization of the literal dreams of Louis Bunuel and Salvador Dali which for the first time brought forward the dream logic, the subconscious and the hidden layers of life out in the open for everyone to face… And it was outrageous.
"For the first time in the history of the cinema, a director tries not to please but rather to alienate, offend nearly all potential spectators and wake them up. It’s disturbing, frustrating, maddening” wrote the critic Ado Kyrou.
Also a breakthrough in trauma documentaries “The Child of Rage”, the actual therapy footage of a 7-year-old Beth Thomas, a girl severely abused by her parents for years admitting her murderous thoughts against her little brother on camera; and “Century of the Self” a one of a kind documentary about the rise of psychoanalysis as a powerful means of persuasion for both governments and corporations using commercials and films.
12 Kasım 2019 Salı
CHAPTER 8 - The Inspiration & The Story
inspiration:
My current story is entirely based on the fact that, me finding out that I’ve been imitating an image of someone else for all my life, afraid of being exposed to who I really am.
What got my attention in my past work, are the common themes that were mesmerizingly repeating themselves… childhood innocence, lost identities, prophecies, magical journeys, searching for eternal happiness and one’s true purpose in life. And of course my tireless efforts to hide them in plain sight within my narratives.
But no more hiding!
Now I am inspired by artists who are not afraid to be themselves. Now I am inspired by artist who have the courage to expose the system and not being afraid by the consequences. My biggest inspiration in this life is Laura Poitras (hello NSA:) and her courageous subjects and her calm, distant, strong narrative and vision.
Bottom line is I am tired of being afraid… I just want to tell my story!
story:
A feature documentary about an adult filmmaker who starts life over again after recollecting a hidden childhood memory of his own; trying to learn how to live, tracing how he got here in the first place… One narrative simultaneously examining 3 perception of realities:
1) The journey (actual timeline of the documentary)
Narrating the story from the beginning, I wish to show how big of a silent issue ‘childhood traumas’ are in our daily conversation, how it affects the people who go through with it, and what is the role of our system in it.
This main part of the documentary is dark, calm and slow paced where the character begins a journey to find one’s true self and begins to heal the pain of the trauma.
2) The healing (the animation)
With the guidance of experts and neuroscientists, I wish to use Lucid Dreaming and re-enact my dreams to connect with my subconscious and visualize the trauma.
This will be a ‘Petit Prince’ like drawn ‘Don Chiote’ story of a child against an invisible monster who has been haunting him for his entire life. The illustrations of the dreams will be innocent, chivalrous and heroic.
3) The culprit (Hollywood)
On this part I wish to introduce a basic, formulated Hollywood movie about a college freshman who one day gets a surprise visit from his future self; to prevent him to go through the biggest trauma of his life that will change the entire outcome of his future forever.
The visuals of this ‘made up’ movie, as a contrast will be extremely commercial, and the snippets of the film that we’re going to see will aim to expose insider film industry tricks, subtle commercial messages and pre-designed triggering words that only aims to create an idealized unreachable idea of reality for its consumers.
Same 3 characters, in 3 different realities, in 3 different textures. One narrative.
hdigis.
keywords:
“childhood”, “memory”, “loss”, “childhood trauma”, “hidden trauma”, “story”, “narrative”, “storytelling”, “documentary”, “feature”, “subconscious”, “guardian angel”, “lucid dreaming”, “smells”, “choices”, “vulnerability”, “escape”, “reality”, “fiction”, “commercial”, “film”, “industry”, “starting over”, “revolt”, “pain”, “dreams”, “journey”, “adult”, “grounding”, “behavior”, “pattern”.
My current story is entirely based on the fact that, me finding out that I’ve been imitating an image of someone else for all my life, afraid of being exposed to who I really am.
What got my attention in my past work, are the common themes that were mesmerizingly repeating themselves… childhood innocence, lost identities, prophecies, magical journeys, searching for eternal happiness and one’s true purpose in life. And of course my tireless efforts to hide them in plain sight within my narratives.
But no more hiding!
Now I am inspired by artists who are not afraid to be themselves. Now I am inspired by artist who have the courage to expose the system and not being afraid by the consequences. My biggest inspiration in this life is Laura Poitras (hello NSA:) and her courageous subjects and her calm, distant, strong narrative and vision.
Bottom line is I am tired of being afraid… I just want to tell my story!
story:
A feature documentary about an adult filmmaker who starts life over again after recollecting a hidden childhood memory of his own; trying to learn how to live, tracing how he got here in the first place… One narrative simultaneously examining 3 perception of realities:
1) The journey (actual timeline of the documentary)
Narrating the story from the beginning, I wish to show how big of a silent issue ‘childhood traumas’ are in our daily conversation, how it affects the people who go through with it, and what is the role of our system in it.
This main part of the documentary is dark, calm and slow paced where the character begins a journey to find one’s true self and begins to heal the pain of the trauma.
2) The healing (the animation)
With the guidance of experts and neuroscientists, I wish to use Lucid Dreaming and re-enact my dreams to connect with my subconscious and visualize the trauma.
This will be a ‘Petit Prince’ like drawn ‘Don Chiote’ story of a child against an invisible monster who has been haunting him for his entire life. The illustrations of the dreams will be innocent, chivalrous and heroic.
3) The culprit (Hollywood)
On this part I wish to introduce a basic, formulated Hollywood movie about a college freshman who one day gets a surprise visit from his future self; to prevent him to go through the biggest trauma of his life that will change the entire outcome of his future forever.
The visuals of this ‘made up’ movie, as a contrast will be extremely commercial, and the snippets of the film that we’re going to see will aim to expose insider film industry tricks, subtle commercial messages and pre-designed triggering words that only aims to create an idealized unreachable idea of reality for its consumers.
Same 3 characters, in 3 different realities, in 3 different textures. One narrative.
hdigis.
keywords:
“childhood”, “memory”, “loss”, “childhood trauma”, “hidden trauma”, “story”, “narrative”, “storytelling”, “documentary”, “feature”, “subconscious”, “guardian angel”, “lucid dreaming”, “smells”, “choices”, “vulnerability”, “escape”, “reality”, “fiction”, “commercial”, “film”, “industry”, “starting over”, “revolt”, “pain”, “dreams”, “journey”, “adult”, “grounding”, “behavior”, “pattern”.
5 Kasım 2019 Salı
CHAPTER 7 - keywords. 150words. 300words.
150 words:
I’ve always been interested in the hidden reasons and motivations that drive people do the things that they do. In the same regard I’ve always found so fascinating the role that our childhood, the most vulnerable and the most impressionable part of our lives, plays in forming our world view as an adult.
But it was only after recently, and only after recollecting a hidden childhood memory of my own that I managed to develop a new and decent understanding of the role of our subconscious mind and started to pay more attention to it…
So now I want to further investigate the outside influences that shape our subconscious mind that eventually shapes our every decision that ultimately shapes the outcome of our lives... and I want to connect this question with, how do we form our new understanding of the world surviving through a trauma. I want to find out: Can it be fixed, can it be healed?
This is the journey of a hidden childhood trauma survivor, at this exact phase, starting life all over again trying to re-learn how to live as an adult.
This is the grounding efforts of a dreamer, connecting with its subconscious in order to find one’s true self and purpose in life while struggling to heal the pain of a trauma.
This is a revolt against an industry and an effort to create a road-map on how to reverse-engineer the obnoxious behavioral patterns that the commercial film industry carved into our minds for years.
keywords:
“childhood”, “memory”, “loss”, “childhood trauma”, “hidden trauma”, “story”, “narrative”, “storytelling”, “documentary”, “feature”, “subconscious”, “guardian angel”, “lucid dreaming”, “smells”, “choices”, “vulnerability”, “escape”, “reality”, “fiction”, “commercial”, “film”, “industry”, “starting over”, “revolt”, “pain”, “dreams”, “journey”, “adult”, “grounding”, “behavior”, “pattern”.
my inspiration:
For this project, I was inspired by a feature documentary called “Minding the Gap” where the filmmaker Bing Liu, is dealing with his own family trauma by exposing himself in front of the camera and connecting the story to his other passion skateboarding that made him survive his troubled childhood.
And I want to do the same, except, I want to go on a journey and make a film about my life long passion to make films that helped me survive my childhood and uncover the hidden motivations behind it.
Minding the Gap: bit.ly/2Nj6t9d
I’ve always been interested in the hidden reasons and motivations that drive people do the things that they do. In the same regard I’ve always found so fascinating the role that our childhood, the most vulnerable and the most impressionable part of our lives, plays in forming our world view as an adult.
But it was only after recently, and only after recollecting a hidden childhood memory of my own that I managed to develop a new and decent understanding of the role of our subconscious mind and started to pay more attention to it…
So now I want to further investigate the outside influences that shape our subconscious mind that eventually shapes our every decision that ultimately shapes the outcome of our lives... and I want to connect this question with, how do we form our new understanding of the world surviving through a trauma. I want to find out: Can it be fixed, can it be healed?
300 words:
A hidden childhood trauma is any experience that presents the child’s mind with a stimulus too powerful to be assimilated in a normal way hence resulting the subconscious mind taking over the system by blocking the memory from processing as normal.
But this protective action doesn’t come without its consequences. And this interference on the psyche of the child, by turning on the survival mode, creates a difficult threshold moving forward where the child has a hard time establishing a base of normality in his life therefore starts to gradually retreat from the real world.
Furthermore, this tendency of escaping the reality makes the child more likely to unconsciously buy-in and connect in a deeper level with the idealized fictional identities, goals and messaging that he has been constantly exposed through commercials, films and television.
And not so surprisingly most children with hidden childhood trauma, later in life, describe the period around their age of 20-30, as their darker moments in their lives; at which time they get out to the real world where for the first time and realize that the fantasy and the promise of a normal life that they were aspiring simply wasn't there like it was in the movies.
This is the journey of a hidden childhood trauma survivor, at this exact phase, starting life all over again trying to re-learn how to live as an adult.
This is the grounding efforts of a dreamer, connecting with its subconscious in order to find one’s true self and purpose in life while struggling to heal the pain of a trauma.
This is a revolt against an industry and an effort to create a road-map on how to reverse-engineer the obnoxious behavioral patterns that the commercial film industry carved into our minds for years.
keywords:
“childhood”, “memory”, “loss”, “childhood trauma”, “hidden trauma”, “story”, “narrative”, “storytelling”, “documentary”, “feature”, “subconscious”, “guardian angel”, “lucid dreaming”, “smells”, “choices”, “vulnerability”, “escape”, “reality”, “fiction”, “commercial”, “film”, “industry”, “starting over”, “revolt”, “pain”, “dreams”, “journey”, “adult”, “grounding”, “behavior”, “pattern”.
my inspiration:
For this project, I was inspired by a feature documentary called “Minding the Gap” where the filmmaker Bing Liu, is dealing with his own family trauma by exposing himself in front of the camera and connecting the story to his other passion skateboarding that made him survive his troubled childhood.
And I want to do the same, except, I want to go on a journey and make a film about my life long passion to make films that helped me survive my childhood and uncover the hidden motivations behind it.
Minding the Gap: bit.ly/2Nj6t9d
29 Ekim 2019 Salı
CHAPTER 6 - Grounding Efforts of a Dreamer
A hidden childhood trauma is any experience that presents the child’s mind with a stimulus too powerful to be assimilated in a normal way. This stimulus results in the child experiencing a state of helplessness and the subconscious mind taking over the system by blocking the memory from processing as normal.
But this protective action doesn’t come without its consequences. And this interference into the psyche of the child by turning on the survival mode beginning from the very early stages of his life generates a very particular type of behavioral pattern in his future. It creates a threshold where the child has a hard time establishing a base of normality in his life therefore starts to gradually retreat from the real world to safer alternatives like dreams, books, and films; or not so safer ones like stimulants, alcohol and drugs.
Furthermore, this tendency of escaping the reality makes them even more vulnerable to the unrealistic messaging of the commercial film industry. They tend to unconsciously buy-in to the distorted fictional identities and relationships that they regard as ideal; and connect in a deeper level with the idealized goals and messaging that they have been constantly exposed through their environment.
And not so surprisingly, most children with hidden childhood trauma, later in life, describe the period around their age of 25, as their darker moments in their lives; at which time they leave their families and get out to the real world where for the first time they realize that the fantasy and the promise of a normal life that they were aspiring simply wasn't there like it was in the movies. Coincidentally this is usually the same time that they recollect their hidden memories from their childhood and either start to drown in it with recurring bad patterns or start to dive with it and begin the process of healing.
This is the story of a hidden childhood trauma survivor who, one day out of nowhere, witness his life unraveling after recalling the worst memory from if its childhood. Suddenly he realizes that everything he believed in for his entire life and the hole inside of him that he was trying to fulfill all along was simply an unreachable, imaginary and brilliantly crafted marketing strategy created by the commercial film industry and television.
This is the grounding efforts of a dreamer… An attempt to find one’s true self and re-learn how to live with as an adult with new ground rules. This is a journey of healing the pains of a trauma, cleaning the subconscious mind and creating a road-map on how to reverse engineer the obnoxious behavioral patterns that the commercial film industry carved into our minds.
personal works: http://boraomeroglu.com/
But this protective action doesn’t come without its consequences. And this interference into the psyche of the child by turning on the survival mode beginning from the very early stages of his life generates a very particular type of behavioral pattern in his future. It creates a threshold where the child has a hard time establishing a base of normality in his life therefore starts to gradually retreat from the real world to safer alternatives like dreams, books, and films; or not so safer ones like stimulants, alcohol and drugs.
Furthermore, this tendency of escaping the reality makes them even more vulnerable to the unrealistic messaging of the commercial film industry. They tend to unconsciously buy-in to the distorted fictional identities and relationships that they regard as ideal; and connect in a deeper level with the idealized goals and messaging that they have been constantly exposed through their environment.
And not so surprisingly, most children with hidden childhood trauma, later in life, describe the period around their age of 25, as their darker moments in their lives; at which time they leave their families and get out to the real world where for the first time they realize that the fantasy and the promise of a normal life that they were aspiring simply wasn't there like it was in the movies. Coincidentally this is usually the same time that they recollect their hidden memories from their childhood and either start to drown in it with recurring bad patterns or start to dive with it and begin the process of healing.
This is the story of a hidden childhood trauma survivor who, one day out of nowhere, witness his life unraveling after recalling the worst memory from if its childhood. Suddenly he realizes that everything he believed in for his entire life and the hole inside of him that he was trying to fulfill all along was simply an unreachable, imaginary and brilliantly crafted marketing strategy created by the commercial film industry and television.
This is the grounding efforts of a dreamer… An attempt to find one’s true self and re-learn how to live with as an adult with new ground rules. This is a journey of healing the pains of a trauma, cleaning the subconscious mind and creating a road-map on how to reverse engineer the obnoxious behavioral patterns that the commercial film industry carved into our minds.
personal works: http://boraomeroglu.com/
22 Ekim 2019 Salı
CHAPTER 5 - The Journey Begins
A grown-up who, one day out of the blue, uncovers the worst possible memory from if its childhood, realizes that the hole that he was trying to fill all along with his ambitions, awards and achievements; was simply an unreachable and brilliantly crafted marketing strategy created by the commercial film industry and television.
Let's start from the beginning...
Hence the children with hidden childhood trauma usually have a hard time establishing a base of normality in their lives. They unconsciously define their environment as hostile and grow a tendency to escape from it with every chance they get by the help of books, films and television. This ‘unknown’ pain that they feel inside, also keeps them from connecting with others and give them the constant feeling like they’re missing something in their lives.
Also this hidden blueprint that they carry around makes them extremely vulnerable to the commercial film industry when they're grow up. For instance a formulated and idealized fictional relationship of a father/son in a television show, written deliberately to sell more ice-creams to 6-12-year-olds; can become more appealing for the child than the reality itself and establish a new aspiration for his life... Same example applies in various other life situations with tempting distorted facts, unrealistic goals and fairy-tale conclusions.
This is also the same period in their lives that they develop addictions, experience constant problems at work, repeat dysfunctional relationships, and face similar patterns in their lives by simply focusing on the stuck past rather than being able to live on with their lives.
But the past can never be changed or fixed… only can be forgiven and healed. And it is at this moment that I want to dive into a journey following my dreams/subconscious where the two piles of years of bad coding; the ones from the hidden trauma and the ones of years of messaging from commercial film industry have been clashing all along.
And its worth mentioning that this journey does not intend to conclude or claim anything in psychology’s field… This is a journey of healing! It is a journey of revolt against the industry that I’ve been a part of for all these years! A journey of rebooting the subconscious mind; healing the pains of the trauma and reverse engineering the obnoxious behavioral patterns that the commercial film industry carved into our minds for all these years.
TED TALKS:
Lucid Dreaming | Healing of the subconscious mind
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OK3SfNxbK3Y
Is There a Buy Button Inside the Brain | Patrick Renvoise
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_rKceOe-Jr0
How movies teach manhood | Colin Stokes
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ueOqYebVhtc
Let's start from the beginning...
“Children with hidden childhood traumas tend to generate a very particular type of behavioral pattern since they’re very little; and instead of living their life fully, they tend to perceive life as something to survive in it.” Middelton-Moz MS, Jane - Author (Children of Trauma).
Hence the children with hidden childhood trauma usually have a hard time establishing a base of normality in their lives. They unconsciously define their environment as hostile and grow a tendency to escape from it with every chance they get by the help of books, films and television. This ‘unknown’ pain that they feel inside, also keeps them from connecting with others and give them the constant feeling like they’re missing something in their lives.
“People don't just buy products, they buy feelings! They buy identities! All humans at some level want to feel significant in their lives.” Lee Clow
Also this hidden blueprint that they carry around makes them extremely vulnerable to the commercial film industry when they're grow up. For instance a formulated and idealized fictional relationship of a father/son in a television show, written deliberately to sell more ice-creams to 6-12-year-olds; can become more appealing for the child than the reality itself and establish a new aspiration for his life... Same example applies in various other life situations with tempting distorted facts, unrealistic goals and fairy-tale conclusions.
“Most children with hidden childhood trauma, later in life, describe the period around their age of 25-30, as their darker moments in their lives; at which time they leave their families and get out to the real world where for the first time they realize that the fantasy and the promise of a normal life that they were aspiring simply wasn't there like it was in the movies.” Lorie Dwinell - Author (After the Tears).
This is also the same period in their lives that they develop addictions, experience constant problems at work, repeat dysfunctional relationships, and face similar patterns in their lives by simply focusing on the stuck past rather than being able to live on with their lives.
“By tapping into our emotions, the commercial industry uses ‘nostalgia’ to encourage us to buy a piece of a memory; a moment in time when things seemed simpler and we thought we were happier. So the care-free, naive, innocent parts of our childhoods are always there for us to fix.” Ben Ho - Associate Professor of Behavioral Economics, Vassar College.
But the past can never be changed or fixed… only can be forgiven and healed. And it is at this moment that I want to dive into a journey following my dreams/subconscious where the two piles of years of bad coding; the ones from the hidden trauma and the ones of years of messaging from commercial film industry have been clashing all along.
And its worth mentioning that this journey does not intend to conclude or claim anything in psychology’s field… This is a journey of healing! It is a journey of revolt against the industry that I’ve been a part of for all these years! A journey of rebooting the subconscious mind; healing the pains of the trauma and reverse engineering the obnoxious behavioral patterns that the commercial film industry carved into our minds for all these years.
TED TALKS:
Lucid Dreaming | Healing of the subconscious mind
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OK3SfNxbK3Y
Is There a Buy Button Inside the Brain | Patrick Renvoise
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_rKceOe-Jr0
How movies teach manhood | Colin Stokes
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ueOqYebVhtc
16 Ekim 2019 Çarşamba
CHAPTER 4 - Aspirations and Reality
This work will try
to answer how hidden childhood traumas, and the generated behavioral
patterns that comes out of it, create a giant discrepancy between one’s
actual life and the life that one aspires through messaging from
television, commercials and the film industry.
A child, during a time of high emotion, makes a subconscious decision to dismiss to deal with the trauma in order to preserve the normality... This decision though, ultimately creates a pattern of a hidden blueprint, which later in life, gets constantly triggered by being exposed to the distorted facts, unrealistic goals, idealized relationship patterns and the wishful fairy-tale conclusions of commercial film industry.
This process, at the same time, is giving the growing child the subtle feeling of something is missing from its life and the illusion of an opportunity to fix the misfortunes of the past.
But the fact is until this hidden blueprint is recognized and addressed on a subconscious level, the child keeps attracting the same circumstances and the same patterns that simply repeat the original trauma on a symbolic level.
So…it is at this point that I want to dive into a journey, to one’s inner self, to the subconscious mind, where the two realities (the codes of a hidden childhood trauma and the formulated messaging of commercial film industry) meet and I want to visualize this fascinating relationship in this unknown territory.
And its worth mentioning that this journey does not intend to conclude or claim anything in psychology’s field but rather to document a three layered case study of:
The actual life struggle of a hidden childhood trauma victim, in parallel with a pre-formulated Hollywood fiction; using subconscious as a narrator and mediator between the two...
A child, during a time of high emotion, makes a subconscious decision to dismiss to deal with the trauma in order to preserve the normality... This decision though, ultimately creates a pattern of a hidden blueprint, which later in life, gets constantly triggered by being exposed to the distorted facts, unrealistic goals, idealized relationship patterns and the wishful fairy-tale conclusions of commercial film industry.
This process, at the same time, is giving the growing child the subtle feeling of something is missing from its life and the illusion of an opportunity to fix the misfortunes of the past.
But the fact is until this hidden blueprint is recognized and addressed on a subconscious level, the child keeps attracting the same circumstances and the same patterns that simply repeat the original trauma on a symbolic level.
So…it is at this point that I want to dive into a journey, to one’s inner self, to the subconscious mind, where the two realities (the codes of a hidden childhood trauma and the formulated messaging of commercial film industry) meet and I want to visualize this fascinating relationship in this unknown territory.
And its worth mentioning that this journey does not intend to conclude or claim anything in psychology’s field but rather to document a three layered case study of:
The actual life struggle of a hidden childhood trauma victim, in parallel with a pre-formulated Hollywood fiction; using subconscious as a narrator and mediator between the two...
8 Ekim 2019 Salı
CHAPTER 3 - Concealed Memories
I want to focus on hidden childhood traumas that are sealed in our subconscious and the behavioral patterns that it creates throughout our lives.
I want to discover the role of these traumas in our day to day behavior and explore the reasons as well as the journey of how they are processed, dealt with and ultimately hidden from our conscious mind.
Keywords: childhood trauma. behavioral patterns. visualization. subconscious. abuse.
After doing my research, my initial notes start like this:
First of all, it is mind bending to find out how COMMON and yet TABOO this subject of childhood trauma is and the most common one out-there is child abuse...
Here are just 3 statistics that blew my mind:
%60 of every children in the US experience physical abuse before even age 4;
%22 experience sexual abuse before age 11, this number is %26 in the UK…
Hidden trauma, as a definition, is any experience that presents the mind with a stimulus too powerful to be assimilated in a normal way. This stimulus results in the child experiencing a state of helplessness and subconscious blocking the event from processing as a normal memory.
This word ‘helplessness’ is very important, considering the fact that most of our beliefs about the world are formed between the ages of 2 and 7 when learning is almost fully subconscious. And with an experience like a hidden childhood trauma, the perception of the world is being formed by wiring the brain with fear without being able to recognize its roots.
Below I have laid out in length, the process of how a hidden trauma of a child becomes the behavior pattern of an adult but, to sum up, after my research I realize more clearly the complete different style of communication and languages between the conscious and subconscious mind.
Conscious mind work on observations, tangible information and words. The language of the subconscious is on the other hand is not verbal at all. It’s merely visual and sensual.
Moving forward, I want to focus on and further investigate two things:
I want to discover the role of these traumas in our day to day behavior and explore the reasons as well as the journey of how they are processed, dealt with and ultimately hidden from our conscious mind.
Keywords: childhood trauma. behavioral patterns. visualization. subconscious. abuse.
After doing my research, my initial notes start like this:
First of all, it is mind bending to find out how COMMON and yet TABOO this subject of childhood trauma is and the most common one out-there is child abuse...
Here are just 3 statistics that blew my mind:
%60 of every children in the US experience physical abuse before even age 4;
%22 experience sexual abuse before age 11, this number is %26 in the UK…
Hidden trauma, as a definition, is any experience that presents the mind with a stimulus too powerful to be assimilated in a normal way. This stimulus results in the child experiencing a state of helplessness and subconscious blocking the event from processing as a normal memory.
This word ‘helplessness’ is very important, considering the fact that most of our beliefs about the world are formed between the ages of 2 and 7 when learning is almost fully subconscious. And with an experience like a hidden childhood trauma, the perception of the world is being formed by wiring the brain with fear without being able to recognize its roots.
Below I have laid out in length, the process of how a hidden trauma of a child becomes the behavior pattern of an adult but, to sum up, after my research I realize more clearly the complete different style of communication and languages between the conscious and subconscious mind.
Conscious mind work on observations, tangible information and words. The language of the subconscious is on the other hand is not verbal at all. It’s merely visual and sensual.
Moving forward, I want to focus on and further investigate two things:
- I am blown away by finding out how wide-spread and how 'hush-hush' this issue of child abuse is in our culture… I am fascinated by this and definitely want to examine this further.
- I want to try to translate this communication between our conscious and subconscious mind to a visualized narrative.
1 Ekim 2019 Salı
CHAPTER 2 - Not Hiding Anymore
It’s this feeling inside of me that I had to live with my entire life; a gap that's never filled, a hole that never went away, and, it took me this long to finally identify exactly what it was.
It’s very interesting to see how our mind deal with our memories, especially the ones that are hard to deal with…
So what happens when one day, out of nowhere, if you just remember the worst possible memory that your five year old mind had locked down for all these years.
Something opens up inside of you and somehow everything clicks. You just realize every fear, every concern, every doubt that you had, it all comes down to this one single moment:
This feeling of one day being exposed to this memory…
This feeling of being afraid all the time…
This constant alertness…
But among all this, besides the sheer shock and the memory itself, something else managed to catch my attention. I happened to notice one giant silver-lining that would completely change my entire perception of my life.
Somehow the idea that my five year old subconscious-self, made a ‘conscious’ decision to hide this memory from me for all these years, fascinated me.
It almost felt like I had someone inside of my brain, acting as a gatekeeper, protecting me from coping with the pain of real life.
So I wondered…
Who was this guy, who was my protector? Was he in charge of my entire subconscious? If so, what kind of a place would that look like? What would it smell like… And how do I get there?
So I began imagining…
Visualizing and going there everyday with no expectations, no idea of where or how to find him and definitely with no idea of what to do if I find him…
Only thing I knew was that, the more I’ve imagined, the more everything made sense.
So…
I want to create a narrative and visualize this relationship. I want to show how my life has transformed by simply imagining building a connection between my conscious and subconscious mind. And by displaying how this structure operates, in parallel, I want to expose all the invisible codes, generated from the commercial art industry that fuels our brain with constant fear, doubt and anxiety.
CHAPTER 1 - What am I interested in, really?
There are lots of different ways to think about this question… Over the years I’ve been interested in several different subjects, and recently what fascinates me the most in life, and for me the most captivating subject of all; is the human mind and the invisible effects of our subconscious that shape our behavior.
So yes… Right this moment in my life I am interested in; the invisible, the myth, the prophecy and the way of living that we used to know but have chosen to forget, but mostly, I am interested in using design, as a tool to help humanity remember its own memory. I want to explore how narrative can be used to change the behavior patterns of its audience…
When I talk about the invisible, the myth, the prophecy I mostly talk about the structure of patterns that connects everything together from our tiny cells to the giant space outside of our solar system. And even though this sounds like a too big of a subject for our conscious mind to grasp on its own, I genuinely believe that in our subconscious level, we are fully aware that we are the product of this giant structure that connects us all. And I believe the next phase of our evolution will be by re-uniting of our conscious and subconscious levels of our mind, to one. And I want to explore designing a structure that helps to create that bridge...
Even though I know that it sounds ambitious, I truly think it is entirely possible to create a completely sustainable narrative that can help people generate the necessary behaviors that will eventually change their behavioral patterns hence the outcome of their entire lives. And even the tiny possibility of this immense transformation fascinates me enough that I want to focus entirely on this issue.
Can narrative or design be used to bring our subconscious mind to the physical world and how would this transformation occur?
First of all, this badly needed transformation is already happening as we speak… All over the world people are more and more aware that even though we, as humans, have conquered everything that there is to conquer out-there, there is still something missing from our lives. The 600 hundred year old promise that our conscious mind is the answer to our salvation have failed miserably and in the meantime the civilization that we’ve created with our super developed science and technology is literary about to destroy itself and the entire world that we’re living in.
Therefore the change that is about to happen and the methodology required for it, simply becomes a question of awareness and design. That’s where the behavioral design comes in to play.
Behavioral design is focused on how design can shape, or be used to influence human behavior. It is not a technique of coercion but persuasion. It is not a technology of force, but a technology of behavior. To that extent, the techniques of behavioral design respect the individual’s inherent right to freedom of choice, autonomy, and most of all its dignity.
At this point I like to explore to create a narrative, using behavioral psychology, turning into ideas and then design a structure that will help create the necessary behavioral patterns that will require for all of us to move forward.
Thank you for your time and as always like Canadians say: Peace uut!
So yes… Right this moment in my life I am interested in; the invisible, the myth, the prophecy and the way of living that we used to know but have chosen to forget, but mostly, I am interested in using design, as a tool to help humanity remember its own memory. I want to explore how narrative can be used to change the behavior patterns of its audience…
When I talk about the invisible, the myth, the prophecy I mostly talk about the structure of patterns that connects everything together from our tiny cells to the giant space outside of our solar system. And even though this sounds like a too big of a subject for our conscious mind to grasp on its own, I genuinely believe that in our subconscious level, we are fully aware that we are the product of this giant structure that connects us all. And I believe the next phase of our evolution will be by re-uniting of our conscious and subconscious levels of our mind, to one. And I want to explore designing a structure that helps to create that bridge...
Even though I know that it sounds ambitious, I truly think it is entirely possible to create a completely sustainable narrative that can help people generate the necessary behaviors that will eventually change their behavioral patterns hence the outcome of their entire lives. And even the tiny possibility of this immense transformation fascinates me enough that I want to focus entirely on this issue.
Can narrative or design be used to bring our subconscious mind to the physical world and how would this transformation occur?
First of all, this badly needed transformation is already happening as we speak… All over the world people are more and more aware that even though we, as humans, have conquered everything that there is to conquer out-there, there is still something missing from our lives. The 600 hundred year old promise that our conscious mind is the answer to our salvation have failed miserably and in the meantime the civilization that we’ve created with our super developed science and technology is literary about to destroy itself and the entire world that we’re living in.
Therefore the change that is about to happen and the methodology required for it, simply becomes a question of awareness and design. That’s where the behavioral design comes in to play.
Behavioral design is focused on how design can shape, or be used to influence human behavior. It is not a technique of coercion but persuasion. It is not a technology of force, but a technology of behavior. To that extent, the techniques of behavioral design respect the individual’s inherent right to freedom of choice, autonomy, and most of all its dignity.
At this point I like to explore to create a narrative, using behavioral psychology, turning into ideas and then design a structure that will help create the necessary behavioral patterns that will require for all of us to move forward.
Thank you for your time and as always like Canadians say: Peace uut!
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